Well today was my last chemo and my visit with my oncologist brought a surprise and answer to "what next?" As you should know from my last blog, another metastasis was found on my back. Now my doctors are convening to see if they are even going to do radiation because this is a clearer indicator that the cancer has spread to my bones. This was something that he made clearer.
The surprise came when he began to talk to me about the hormone therapy that I will start regardless of the radiation and will take the rest of my life. This is the most important part of my therapy; I didn't know that. I also didn't know that if this therapy does not work, my diagnosis is terminal. This was a surprise to both me and my doctor. For me, because no one had told me this before and for him, because he thought I knew. Needless to say Pablo, my mom and I were all taken back. But it didn't last, God is in control. Nothing has changed. My life is 100% in God's hands and I must trust Him for my every day and whatever His will is for my life. What is up to me is how I use each of these days to His glory.
Prov. 27:1 clearly tells me, "Don't worry about tomorrow, because you don't know what tomorrow will bring" and since the beginning of this journey I've made it appoint to do what Prov. 3:5-6 teaches me:
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all you ways acknowledge Him and He WILL direct your paths."
What an incredible promise!
1 comments:
Praying as always. Our message at church on sunday was about how with God there is never hopeless. He will heal us weather it is here or when we join him. I needed to be reminded of that. I am so blessed as always by your faith. Hugs and lots of love to you all. Tell Emma to give Pablo and you a hug for me. Just cause I love Emma hugs.
Anna
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