Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Need Assistance in Instilling a Love for Worship thru Music

Okay, here is my next project...I am asking all my friends to burn a CD of their kid's favorite Christian artist or band and mailing it to Emma. I've got a shuffle I want to upload them to with the hope of getting her hooked to Christian music. I am SOOOOO over Disney fluff/pop/love/senseless/brainwashing! She has been kinda down lately too. She senses something is up but is unsure what. So, could you also send a note of encouragement with a picture of who you are and how you know me. I think this is a really cool project but I NEED YOUR HELP! Please let me know you're in so I can send you the address.
Thanks for being a part of our lives,
Adrienne

Monday, June 28, 2010

T3, T9, T11-12 & Hormone Treatment


Well today was my last chemo and my visit with my oncologist brought a surprise and answer to "what next?" As you should know from my last blog, another metastasis was found on my back.  Now my doctors are convening to see if they are even going to do radiation because this is a clearer indicator that the cancer has spread to my bones.  This was something that he made clearer. 

The surprise came when he began to talk to me about the hormone therapy that I will start regardless of the radiation and will take the rest of my life.  This is the most important part of my therapy; I didn't know that.  I also didn't know that if this therapy does not work, my diagnosis is terminal.  This was a surprise to both me and my doctor.  For me, because no one had told me this before and for him, because he thought I knew. Needless to say Pablo, my mom and I were all taken back. But it didn't last, God is in control. Nothing has changed. My life is 100% in God's hands and I must trust Him for my every day and whatever His will is for my life.  What is up to me is how I use each of these days to His glory.

Prov. 27:1 clearly tells me, "Don't worry about tomorrow, because you don't know what tomorrow will bring" and since the beginning of this journey I've made it appoint to do what Prov. 3:5-6 teaches me:
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all you ways acknowledge Him and He WILL direct your paths."
What an incredible promise!

Friday, June 25, 2010

Busco Sabiduría

La sabiduría comienza por honrar al Señor; conocer al Santísimo es tener inteligencia.

Proverbios 9:10 (Dios Habla Hoy)

Mi proposito de cada día es honrar a Dios y también conocer el Padre Santísimo de manera más profunda. Puedo hacer esto atreves de leer sus palabra que El me ha dejado; perfectas para cada situación en que me encuentro. Esta forma de vivir es de un aventurera en búsqueda de la sabiduría.

Dios promete conceder mi de darme esto que más valor que cualquier otra cosa que yo puedo desear, nada se le puede comparar. Proverbios 8:11 Vale más sabiduría que piedras preciosas; ¡ni lo más deseable se le puede comparar!

Cada vez que me pongo a estudiar anoto los versículos que encuentro parecidos. Para mi es la mejor indicación que Dios me pueda dar.

"¡OYE, Adriana, esto es importante, hazlo!"

Y en cada blog voy a intentar anotar y comentar sobre lo que yo he encontrada y luego quiero que Uds. añaden lo que han aprendido, lo que Uds. piensan y lo que Uds. han aprendido de sus experiencias como Dios ha probado estas verdad y promesas

Este blog es simple, al igual que su escritora y aventurera y por eso te ruego que siempre mantengas tus ojos en Dios y no en mí. Es un hecho que te voy a fallar, Dios nunca te fallara.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Ladies Only!

This evening is one of those weird and rare moments in our home when the house is being run by the ladies. Mom, Nelly, Emma, Me, Betty Boop (Chihuahua) and Sweetie (Pug) had a ladies night. We watched movies, got scared when we heard fireworks and thought they were gunshots, ate horrible, good stuff, laughed and hung out. Dad went to Miami to visit his mom whose health is failing and Pablo was in Lakeland for a work seminar. Emma just thought it was the coolest thing ever it was just us. Me, too.

We also went on a pleasant walk around the block and cleared my mind. I needed it you see. I got the preliminary report from my MRI I had on Monday and it now appears there are two lesions on my spine not one. They didn't see the second spot the first time around but in "retrospect" can see it now and it has gotten larger. What does this mean? Not a whole lot, except I'll need additional radiation to this second area of my spine. Please be in prayer over T3 and T9. The radiation should help with pain I experience and also to reduce the size of these lesions.

It's a roller coaster, life that is. I just wish I'd stay in the car at all times and stop getting out to complain, get myself worked up and all for what? The ride is still going to go on and I'm better off holding on to dear life to God and enjoy it. I do like a good roller coasters! What is my problem?

Any who…I love you guys and sure do wish you'd write more. Signing off after an adventurous day- Adrienne

Friday, June 11, 2010

Can it get any worse, Lord?

To say this has been the worst of the worst would be a gross understatement. I have never felt so horrible in my life. Praise God I had my first Radiation Oncology appointment, so the dr. could see how bad I was. The appointment in and of itself was useless but they took me up to the infusion center and pumped me up with "feel good" medicine. What a difference. I am still taking the morphine and other stuff to manage but feel ten times better.

I covet your prayers and thank those who have been so consistent in lifting me up.

Love,
Adrienne

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

So Tired, So Tired

I can't even begin to express how tired and fatigued I feel. This chemo causes neuropathy which basically expresses itself with tingling like my hands are trying to wake up after going to sleep. It feels like tiny prickly needles. The bottoms of my feet feel the same way which make it interesting to find comfortable shoes and ways to walk. I finished my third treatment and only have one more to go. I CAN'T wait! I can't wait for the break either. My prayer is I will be able to build up some strength before starting the radiation treatments. God has been good though and I haven't felt the extreme pain I felt with the first Abraxane treatment. I am able to get up and be around I'm just not the most energetic person to be around and am very capable to fall asleep in the middle of your conversation. LOL.

I've been reading this fiction book that has a lot of similarities with Pilgrim's Progress. Obviously it's a modern version and although I don't completely agree with the doctrine, it is a fiction book that has brought to life again what our relationship with God should be. Trusting God, knowing Him and gaining understanding. How appropriately it fit with our family's memory verse for the week: Proverbs 9:10 If you really want to become wise, you must begin with having respect for the Lord. To know the Holy One is to gain understanding. I don't believe in coincidences and this book has really touched me, so if you are looking for a good read and are willing to sift through and glean from what has been written as a fiction novel, try reading "The Shack" by William P. Young.

The novel is set in the American Northwest. The main character is Mackenzie Philips, a father of five, called "Mack" by his family and friends.

Four years prior to the main events of the story, Mack takes his three youngest children on a camping trip to Wallowa Lake near Joseph, Oregon stopping at Multnomah Falls on the way. Two of his children are playing in a canoe when it flips and almost drowns Mack's son. Mack is able to save his son by leaving his youngest daughter Missy alone at their campsite. After Mack returns, he sees that Missy is missing. The police are called, and the family discovers that Missy has been abducted and murdered by a serial killer known as the "Little Ladykiller." The police find an abandoned shack in the woods where Missy was taken, but her body is never found. Mack's life sinks into what he calls "The Great Sadness."

At the beginning of the book, Mack receives a note in his mailbox from "Papa," saying that he would like to meet with Mack on that coming weekend at the shack. Mack is puzzled by the note - he has no relationship with his abusive father after Mack leaves home at age 13. He suspects that the note may be from God, whom his wife Nan refers to as "Papa."

Mack's family leaves to visit relatives and he goes alone to the shack, unsure of what he will see there. He arrives and finds nothing, but as he is leaving, the shack and its surroundings are supernaturally transformed into a lush and inviting scene. He enters the shack and encounters manifestations of the three persons of the Trinity. God the Father takes the form of an African American woman who calls herself Papa, Jesus Christ is a Middle-Eastern carpenter, and the Holy Spirit physically manifests itself as an Asian woman named Sarayu.

The bulk of the book narrates Mack's conversations with Papa, Jesus, and Sarayu as he comes to terms with Missy's death and his relationships with the three of them. Mack also has various experiences with each of them. Mack walks across a lake with Jesus, sees an image of his father in heaven with Sarayu, and has a conversation with Sophia, the personification of God's wisdom. At the end of his visit, Mack goes on a hike with Papa, who shows him where Missy's body was left in a cave.

After spending the weekend at the shack, Mack leaves and is so preoccupied with his thoughts that he is nearly killed in an automobile accident. After his recovery, he realizes that he did not in fact spend the weekend at the shack, but that his accident occurred on the same day that he arrived at the shack. He also leads the police to the cave which Papa revealed, and they find Missy's body still lying there. With the help of forensic evidence discovered at the scene, the Little Ladykiller is arrested and put on trial.

Monday, June 07, 2010

Next…

I will be going for my 3rd of 4 chemo treatments left. I am so fatigued now, I am not looking forward to tomorrow. Pray for God's strength to get through the next 6 weeks. I will then take a short break before starting 33 radiation treatments.

Many have asked if that is the end but unfortunately I don't have that answer nor do my doctors. This will only be clear or clearer after my chemo is finished and more tests are run. I am asking for God to heal me but at the same time I am asking for His will to be done. Please pray with me.

About the author: Adrienne Conde

It has been a dream of mine to write a book but today that seems so limiting with blogging available. So this is where this little project of mine has lead me to a blog on my favorite book of the Bible: Proverbs. Feel free to leave comments, lessons learned, life experiences that validate, encouragement, etc. Join me on my quest for wisdom and my greatest burden- imparting this wisdom to Emma, my life project.

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